Moving

I've grew out of my past, I mean, yes, I am running away from it and I think it is for the better.

I thought I had it all, I thought I know what I want. I thought things will be better in time, but it takes a long fucking time and I can't wait anymore. I decided to just make a new platform for my thoughts and "emotional" posts as you would say. Well, fuck you.

There being said and done. Ask me for my new link.

Audrey Hepburn

I sort of, like, met my idol in a form of wax!

"I believe in manicures. I believe in overdressing. I believe at primping at leisure and wearing lipstick. I believe in pink. I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles."

"The most important thing is to enjoy your life--to be happy--it's all that matters."

"Your heart just breaks, that's all. But you can't judge or point fingers. You just have to be lucky enough to find someone who appreciates you."

"You can always tell what kind of a person a man really thinks you are by the earrings he gives you."

"I have to be alone very often. I'd be quite happy if I spent from Saturday night until Monday morning alone in my apartment. That's how I refuel."

"My greatest ambition is to have a career without becoming a career woman."

"I don't want to own anything until I find a place where me and things go together. I'me not sure where that is but I know what it is like. It's like Tiffany's."

Now I know why, with all the fuss people are making about her.

I hate money

Everything in this world involves money-- Materials, foods and living. Everything except for love. You can spread out love aura to anybody, anyone. To some people, especially me, I have become a person that is scared of love. I'm not used to having love given to me directly. It's always indirectly or sometimes.. I'm just blind enough to see that there is someone out there pouring their love to me while I'm here shutting everyone out. It's always been this way-- scared and scarred.

I'm not living to please people but I did what I have to do, I gave out love to everyone whom I think will always have my back and never leave me but what I learned as of today is to not expect much from anyone because "The worst betrayal always come from the ones we trust the most". My senses believed that no matter how much I tried being nice, lovable and happy, somehow it is just not enough.

To my family, my Boyfriend and my friends, please don't take me as an advantage. I love all of you to bits and viruses, wholeheartedly. I might not be here long but I'll always remember each one of you.

This is me being honest about something for once.

Just for the sake of packing

I'm a neat freak, I YouTube/Google on how to pack a suitcase.

I changed my mind (sort of)

TDF!!!!!11!!!!!1!1!!!!1

Mini masquerade party

Jakarta trip: I love travelling to same places because every time I came back, I learn new things and gain new experiences. Bonded with my family over couture knock-offs and cheap stuffs. I made new friends (I need to remind myself not to be too friendly sometimes). Worked and earned my own pocket money. Spent millions of Rupiah. Hung out and just.. Enjoy my time of temporary freedom.

Grillz: It hurts. I don't want to talk about it.

Books: Still onto.. Twilight. I need a bitch slap. I've been procrastinating since early of November and now it's almost half of December and I'm just wasting time.. (Literally, freaking out here! Oh crap.)

IN: Wanting to write for all my life, possibly for this blog or just anything (please, give me a writing gig.. I'm begging! Ha! Kidding). I need to work my ass off to prove that I can be an Editor or anything related and save money for future use. Instax, Bamboo and Macbook. +/- iPhone 4S (A girl can dream..). Or just draw your mind.

OUT: Hard solid foods. Curse you metals in my mouth! Other than that.. Stop trying to "feel" everything, it's not worth it. Stick to what you have in your life right now and don't forget to throw away old toys.

Reminder: Write a new list for '12 New Year's resolutions and drink loads of water.

Post-hiatus: I'm home!

I love aleexandraaxo so much!