Audrey Hepburn

I sort of, like, met my idol in a form of wax!

"I believe in manicures. I believe in overdressing. I believe at primping at leisure and wearing lipstick. I believe in pink. I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles."

"The most important thing is to enjoy your life--to be happy--it's all that matters."

"Your heart just breaks, that's all. But you can't judge or point fingers. You just have to be lucky enough to find someone who appreciates you."

"You can always tell what kind of a person a man really thinks you are by the earrings he gives you."

"I have to be alone very often. I'd be quite happy if I spent from Saturday night until Monday morning alone in my apartment. That's how I refuel."

"My greatest ambition is to have a career without becoming a career woman."

"I don't want to own anything until I find a place where me and things go together. I'me not sure where that is but I know what it is like. It's like Tiffany's."

Now I know why, with all the fuss people are making about her.

I hate money

Everything in this world involves money-- Materials, foods and living. Everything except for love. You can spread out love aura to anybody, anyone. To some people, especially me, I have become a person that is scared of love. I'm not used to having love given to me directly. It's always indirectly or sometimes.. I'm just blind enough to see that there is someone out there pouring their love to me while I'm here shutting everyone out. It's always been this way-- scared and scarred.

I'm not living to please people but I did what I have to do, I gave out love to everyone whom I think will always have my back and never leave me but what I learned as of today is to not expect much from anyone because "The worst betrayal always come from the ones we trust the most". My senses believed that no matter how much I tried being nice, lovable and happy, somehow it is just not enough.

To my family, my Boyfriend and my friends, please don't take me as an advantage. I love all of you to bits and viruses, wholeheartedly. I might not be here long but I'll always remember each one of you.

This is me being honest about something for once.

Just for the sake of packing

I'm a neat freak, I YouTube/Google on how to pack a suitcase.

I changed my mind (sort of)

TDF!!!!!11!!!!!1!1!!!!1

Mini masquerade party

Jakarta trip: I love travelling to same places because every time I came back, I learn new things and gain new experiences. Bonded with my family over couture knock-offs and cheap stuffs. I made new friends (I need to remind myself not to be too friendly sometimes). Worked and earned my own pocket money. Spent millions of Rupiah. Hung out and just.. Enjoy my time of temporary freedom.

Grillz: It hurts. I don't want to talk about it.

Books: Still onto.. Twilight. I need a bitch slap. I've been procrastinating since early of November and now it's almost half of December and I'm just wasting time.. (Literally, freaking out here! Oh crap.)

IN: Wanting to write for all my life, possibly for this blog or just anything (please, give me a writing gig.. I'm begging! Ha! Kidding). I need to work my ass off to prove that I can be an Editor or anything related and save money for future use. Instax, Bamboo and Macbook. +/- iPhone 4S (A girl can dream..). Or just draw your mind.

OUT: Hard solid foods. Curse you metals in my mouth! Other than that.. Stop trying to "feel" everything, it's not worth it. Stick to what you have in your life right now and don't forget to throw away old toys.

Reminder: Write a new list for '12 New Year's resolutions and drink loads of water.

Post-hiatus: I'm home!

I love aleexandraaxo so much!

Hiatus: I'm on a vacation

I'll write soon!

(Nobody actually reads my blog..)

brick walls and statement necklace

Time flies so fast, it's November in a blink.

Starting the 11th month with swollen gums, cramps and every existence of girl problems. Mood swings and whatnot are not fun. I've been sprinkled compliments, praises and good karma. "What other people think of you is none of your business". I don't like labels. One thing fo' sure -- How I style myself, is definitely how I'm feeling at the mo'.

Football.. Where do I begin? I'm not a fan, I tried (so hard), but it doesn't seem to (what would they say?) find a place in my heart. Nada, nothing, zero. Obvious reason: I don't give a shit (at all!). Moving on..

Numerical forms of what is up for Nov:

i/ Of being random and for the love of writing: NaNoWriMo '11

ii/ Exploring Jakarta soon!
iii/Grillz -- Why did I ever agreed? I got sick 78% of my holiday and what is life (yet again)?

iv/ Future plans.. All I can see is bokeh.

Saturday was fun: Chic Pop, dessert date and BBQ. Sunday: I got sick and nobody cares (I'm just being dramatic here). But really, I was nothing but super nice to you all week and how did you repay me? By shitting all over me. Excuse the language, I'm hormonal. Meds time!

Goodbye October

INSTAX MINI 7s

NIKON P7100

CANON G12 -- I'm always a fan of Canon. I've been wanting G7 since I was 15.

Behold! My latest obsession -- GF3

P/S: I'll settle for any cheap digital camera. I need my own pocket camera. Anybody wants to give me a job?

Endless Roads: Numero uno.

Superb 10 minutes of my life.

Mid-October rants

Hm.. The smell of freedom and everything in between.

What's new? What's in and what's out?

What's left of October will be inertly spend on the magic machine (cue: the laptop) with loads of downloading episodes and random surfing. I can't remember what I did for the past two/three weeks of freedom. Most of my money are spent on popcorn and orthodontist appointments (sweet tooth.. Shut up, I do brush my teeth). Mister is out of the question -- being sweet and adorable as always. Friends? Hm.. Where are you guys? Those "I miss yous" and "Let's hangout?" are totally bullshit. Get your butt back here and rock the world with me just because. Excuse my posts about books as I am still overwhelmed with my book haul at Big Bang Wolf Book sale last week. Scored big and it was definitely worth it. My love towards books is indescribable. The time I've spent reading books are more than the time I've spent with anyone in real life. Books are my companion. Films come afterward. And by that, oh dear Mister, do read your books 'cause I'm watching you. Be afraid, my man.

This rant, is, me. I'm back, bitches.

Book #3

Currently reading:

The first time I laid my eyes on the book, I secretly thought that I wouldn't like it because I judged the cover (my bad!) and after I read it, I was sucked into it deeply. Fangirling over Edward Cullen everyday like it's not an option.. The character not Robert Pattinson, mind you.

Future plans are to reread The Twilight saga because... The film adaptation of Breaking Dawn is coming soon, which there will be in two parts. Part 1 will be premiered somewhere in November and I'm determined to read these four books within a month or so. People need to stop comparing between these books and Harry Potter series (which are also amazing!). They are different in so many ways, nobody can top J.K. Rowling right? But Stephenie Meyer has such an epic imagination because the Twilight saga is mind-blowing. Maybe it's a little bit cheesy here and there (well, it's really romantic and cheesier than you think) but you should totally pick them up! You won't regret it, I promise.

Here's the trailer of The Twilight saga: Breaking Dawn Part 1

Curiosity kills as to which part they will end it and make it "to be continued.." and this giddiness is unacceptable.

Book #2

Taken from Wikipedia: L.A. Candy is a young-adult novel written by American author Lauren Conrad. The novel was first released as a hardcover on June 16, 2009. The book is one of a three book series about Jane Roberts. She moves to Hollywood, works at Fiona Chen's events company, and eventually gets her own reality show, which is called L.A. Candy. It features the ups and downs of Jane's life, and three other girls' lives.

The reason why I bought this book is because of Lauren Conrad. I grew up with Laguna Beach and The Hills (and The City). I love gossips and drama (LOL JK!). In my opinion, the book is really flat. It doesn't give any impact on me, it doesn't make me want to read it for 5 hours straight. There's no grip, no nothing. I'll probably won't buy the sequel, but I'll definitely borrow and read the sequels when I have time.

Rate: ★★

Book #1

Taken from Wikipedia: The Time Traveler's Wife is the debut novel of American author Audrey Niffenegger, published in 2003. It is a love story about a man with a genetic disorder that causes him to time travel unpredictably, and about his wife, an artist, who has to cope with his frequent absences and dangerous experiences.

I've been procrastinating (a lot) and I have finally finished reading 593 pages of The Time Traveler's wife (Oh.. I'm just bragging) since god knows when I started reading that book.

It is a really powerful book. Most of the times, I got really into it but sometimes I've had issues trying to cope up with it. I learned a lot of new vocab and mostly forgotten them all. Excuse me for being a bimbo sometimes. Truthfully, I should not make a habit of procrastinating on reading story books in between school days. For me, I have to read story books straight for days but I picked a wrong time to read this, so I didn't really get to enjoy it.

P/S: The reason why I wanted to read that book is because I want to know the characters deeper and the story line in author's point of view before I watch the movie. That's about it. I know, I can be weird sometimes (wait, maybe all the time..).

Rate: ★★★★

$$$

Gillian Zinser. What's not to love?

A to Zara

A. Age: 19 B. Bed size: Single. Nothing fancy.. Though sometimes I wish I have a bigger bed size. Or something like this. Or this. Or.. This. C. Chore that you hate: Chauffeuring. D. Dogs: No comment. E. Essential start to your day: Water! And checking my virtual life on the Internet (It's a habit I'm trying to break. I promise!) F. Favorite color: It depends on my mood. But right now, I like grey. G. Gold or Silver: Gold and silver. H. Height: 5' 3" I. Instruments you play: I don’t have any natural musical talent. But I can play the guitar (sort of) and the piano (not really). I think I'm tone deft. J. Job title: A part time lover and full time friend. K. Kids: None. Probably someday way off in the future. L. Live: Malaysia. M. Mother’s name: Zurida. N. Nicknames: Come to think of it, I don't have one. How sad is my life? O. Overnight hospital stays: 2008-- Got my appendix removed. Fun times. P. Pet peeves: People telling me what to do. Q. Quote from a movie: “Suddenly you're afraid and you don't know what you're afraid of.”- Breakfast at Tiffany's / "You want to be really great? Then have the courage to fail big and stick around. Make them wonder why you're still smiling." - Elizabethtown. R. Right or left handed: Righty. I can write with my left hand too. S. Siblings: Two older brother, little sister, and little brother. U. Underwear: ... V. Vegetable you hate: Not sure.. I eat everything. W. What makes you run late: Getting ready.. Or overslept. X. X-Rays you’ve had: Body and teeth. Y. Yummy food that you make: I make an awesome macaroni and cheese from the instant box. Yum! Z. Zoo animal: I'm never a fan of animals. But I like baby animals. Yeah.. Sort of.

What is life?

Stage 1: Extraction (Part 1)

Should have Google this earlier before I went to get my teeth extracted from my mouth. Today is the fifth day after I got two teeth extracted, and ulcers have been forming on my right side of mouth and on my lips. It's disgusting and painful. But no worries, with right medication and food you're good to go. But unlike me, I hate this pain. I am constantly lying down on my bed pretending to be sick (well, I should get sick because of this stupid unbearable pain ulcers in my mouth) and really I didn't feel like eating anything. Today, I made omelet of my own recipe which I just add in chopped potato and layered the omelet with cheese. But it was an epic fail attempt. I burnt the omelet and the potato is a little bit hard to bite on. Overall, it was okay.

Healing after Extractions and Oral Surgery

After one or more teeth have been removed, you will want to do all the right things for the area to heal quickly and smoothly. This requires that a blood clot is formed. The blood clot covers the extraction site and allows the area to heal. A lot of the tips below help the blood clot to form properly and not become dislodged.

Do’s:

• It is normal for the area to be tender for the first few days, and in most cases simple over-the-counter pain relief is enough to ease any discomfort. Start taking painkillers immediately afterwards – don’t wait until pain sets in!It’s far easier to prevent pain than to make it go away. The usual painkillers of choice are ibuprofen or ketoprofen (some products have codeine added for extra pain relief). Check with your dentist or another health care provider that you can take these (for example, asthma sufferers shouldn’t). If you can’t, your dentist will be able to recommend an alternative. Avoid disprin (aspirin) as this thins the blood and can make your mouth bleed. Check with your dentist or pharmacist if you feel you need something stronger.
• Go home, take it easy for the rest of the day, and don’t exercise for at least 12 to 24 hours. If you want to lie down, and for the first night following surgery, keep your head up with pillows if possible. Do not bend over or do heavy lifting for 2-3 days.
• If you still feel numb 6 hours later, call your dentist or oral surgeon! If you get back in within 24 hours, your oral surgeon can inject some steroids into the nerve area, which can help reduce swelling and may help speed recovery. Prolongued numbness can also be due to a longer-lasting local anaesthetic (marcaine) – in this case, the effect is intentional, but your oral surgeon should have specifically told you that they’ve used this.
• Your dentist should let you know how to control any bleeding. Usually, a gauze pad will be placed on the area, and you should try and keep firm pressure on it. You should change this dressing about every 30 to 45 minutes, depending on the amount of bleeding. WARNING: Some people are freaked out by the amount of blood. Relax – a small amount of blood is mixed with a larger amount of saliva (or “spit” in dentist speak), which can make it look a lot more dramatic than it is! Many dentists will give you a package of gauze to take home with you, but you may want to buy some gauze beforehand. If you need to use it, fold the clean gauze into a pad, thick enough to bite on, then moisten it and place it directly on the extraction site. Hold the gauze firmly in place, by biting down on the pad or using finger pressure, for about half an hour to an hour. If this doesn’t stop the bleeding, moisten a tea bag with water and fold it in half and bite down on it for 30 minutes (the tannic acid in black tea helps stop bleeding). Some slight bleeding for the first day or so is normal. But if you still bleed more heavily after an hour or two, contact your dentist.
• While you shouldn’t rinse for the first 24 hours, after this initial period you should gently rinse 4 times a day using warm salt water (1 teaspoon of salt in a glass of warm water). Do not spit out forcefully! Rinse after every meal and snack, making sure that the water removes any bits of food around the area where the tooth is missing.
• Your dentist may also advise you to use chlorhexidine mouth rinse (Corsodyl in the UK, available in pharmacies, Peridex in the US, prescription-only) for 10 days or so following surgery. This kills bacteria.
• Be careful not to dislodge the blood clot when brushing near the extraction site for 3-4 days. You can carefully wipe the area with a clean, wet gauze pad. If you can’t get a toothbrush into your mouth due to swelling or discomfort (after wisdom tooth removal), chlorhexidine mouthwash (see above) is a handy adjunct.
• Stick to a liquid or soft food diet for the first day or two. Examples include soups, yoghurts, fruit milkshakes, smoothies, mashed potatoes, etc. A Vitamin C supplement may also be helpful. Avoid spicy foods, hot drinks and sodas for 3-4 days, to prevent irritation and burns. Tips for soft foods can be found here:Soft Food Suggestions
• If you’ve been prescribed antibiotics, follow the instructions and make sure you finish the course.
• Swelling and sometimes bruising can occur after surgery, esp. with so-called “wisdom teeth” (short for wizzies). The worst swelling, pain and jaw stiffness normally occurs 2 or 3 days after surgery. On the day of the surgery, apply ice packs for 15 minutes on then 15 minutes off until bedtime. This will keep swelling to a minimum. Also keep your head elevated until bedtime. Moist heatafter 36 hours may help jaw soreness. Arnica (a homeopathic treatment available from pharmacies and health stores) can be taken orally and/or as a cream to help with the swelling.
• After wizzie removal, try to gently keep stretching your mouth open to get it moving again. It can be tempting just to not open it wide at all, but that can lead to permanent limitated opening (“trismus”). Don’t overdo it, though!
• If you can get hold of it in time, chlorine dioxide gel is great for post-op healing after extractions and anything which might leave your gums a bit sore. It’s also great for oral ulcers and burns. Unfortunately, it’s not sold in shops, so unless your dentist sells it, Oxyfresh Dental Gel is only available by mail order.

Don’ts:

• Don’t be tempted to rinse the area for 24 hours after tooth removal.
• Avoid hot food or drinks until the numbing wears off. You cannot feel pain while you’re numb and may burn your mouth. Also take care not to accidentally chew your cheek!
• Don’t poke at the extraction site! – keep your fingers and tongue away from this area.
• Avoid sucking (ahem… through straws and stuff), spitting, and blowing your nose (unless you have to). This is because positive or negative pressure could dislodge the blood clot. If you have a cold or allergies or anything that will want you blow your nose or sneeze, take appropriate medications to treat these.
• Try not to smoke for as long as possible afterwards, but at the very least for the rest of the day. Smoking can interfere with the healing process, and also the sucking motion could dislodge the blood clot.
• Avoid alcohol for 24 hours, as it could delay the healing process.

The Healing Process:

It usually takes gum tissue about 3-4 weeks to heal. The bone can take up to 6 months to heal completely. However, pain should be lessening by the second day. But it varies from person to person, and also depends on how easy or difficult the tooth removal was.

“There’s a piece of bone coming out where the tooth has been pulled!”

You may feel the sharp edge of the socket with your tongue and sometimes, little bits of bone may make their way to the surface and work their way out. This is perfectly normal and harmless. If a small bit of bone is annoying you and you don’t want to wait until it comes out by itself, you can ask your dentist to remove it for you.

“I’m still in pain. What should I do?”

Pain that lasts for up to a week or so but is gradually getting better is normal. You could ask your dentist or pharmacist for stronger painkillers.

Pain that starts to get worse after two days is considered abnormal and you may want to see your dentist. This could be a sign of “dry socket”.

Dry Socket

A dry socket occurs when the blood clot for healing becomes dislodged or doesn’t form. In that case, the bone and fine nerve endings are not protected and exposed to air, food, and liquids. Dry socket delays the healing process and can be very painful.

If you suspect dry socket, see your dentist. S/he will place a medicated dressing in the socket which will almost instantly relieve pain. If the area is infected, your dentist may also prescribe a course of antibiotics. The medicated dressing should be changed every day or two at the start, and then at longer intervals. Though some dressings are designed to stay in and dissolve by themselves.

If you follow the “do’s” and “don’ts” above, you’ll minimize your chances of getting dry socket.

of Toms and longboard

Happy holidays!

The bond, one van and longboards. I'd like to go on a trip like that one day. One can dream, can I? Newsflash: Examinations are over! It's holiday season for me and I'm back on track with Tumblr and YouTube. One week without the internet was.. Horrible for me!

Plans for the holiday: Get a job, movie/series marathon, read books, shopping and longboard rides.

14th of 24/7

"Boy you got my heart beat runnin' away, beating like a drum and it's coming your way"

One of my favourite songs for 2011

Hey babe, I love you ♥

flaw and flawless

Try go on a week without makeup (well, I'm really good at this) and feel awesome in your own skin. Quick reminder: everybody do have flaws. I don't want to be cliche or whatever but nobody is perfect. You'll say good things about other people having fair and flawless skin when you're not (this applies to me, which I need to stop doing) and you didn't realise you're actually judging people around you silently or loudly. It'll be awkward if everyone looks the same and have the same type of skin, body and hair, no? Embrace what you're blessed with! Be you!

(I'm actually self-motivating myself. I'm not making any sense now..)

suitcase and clothes

What's better than Hayley Williams packing stuff for tour? You tell me.

dances and clothes

My close friend/classmate, Zatis, showed me this and I'm sharing it with you.

what is up

I think it's time for me to write again.. And this time do cross your fingers so I won't delete this blog anytime soon. I miss writing. I miss being who I used to be; fearless and awesome. Ha ha kidding!

For the past years of not writing, I grew up and become a new person. I swear, sometimes I scare myself with the thought of that. This blog is dedicated to my new found love towards longboarding and sartorial matters.

I'll be writing soon about my growth of skills in playing longboard (which I suck at the moment) but who cares, at least I'm starting somewhere right? Thank you to my boyfriend and my roommate who have been supporting all this while and not to mention being patient with my crackness and weirdness.